So, sometimes I feel like blogs are like Christmas letters. All happy, happy, joy, joy.
Not that people
lie on them, but that it's all about personal accomplishments. But how much of our lives are actually big accomplishments? I'd guess less than 5% of them. The rest is just the little in between moments. The nothings. But if you have lots of nothing, isn't that something?
I found
this incredibly poignent post from athlete Brianna Glenn via
Jasmine Star's blog this July (side note, I love, love, love reading J*'s blog. Her writing style is so fresh, fun and playful ... and her images can only be described as eye candy).
Justin and Mary have a particularly vulnerable post lately, tooI appreciate that some people share the valleys, because there are lows in life. Just like there are highs. It also somehow makes people feel *more real* and multi-dimensional to me (if that makes
any sense).
So ... today is one of those days. More particularly one of those last 5 hours. I've just been in sort of a funk/pity party. Which isn't entirely like me at all.
Do you ever have those days when you question who you are and what you're doing? (if you don't, I think you're lying to yourself). ;-)
Who am I?
What am I doing?
What is my purpose?
Does God
REALLY have a plan for me?
Am I even close to fulfilling my life's mission on this earth?
How will I KNOW what that mission is?
Maybe I'm wasting my time.
Maybe I'm wasting God's time (now
THAT's a scary thought!).
But I am blessed. So blessed.
I have a husband more amazing than I could have ever imagined. A super yummie dinner at a little hole in the wall pizzaria certainly helped to improve my mood.
So, then I come home and start to mope again (what gives?).
And I start to question. And wallow in self pity.
I miss my friends.
Why does S live in Atlanta? It's too far away. I want to go have coffee w/ her
RIGHT NOW.
Too bad Robin's throat is all sore and she can't talk. I could use some sister love.
Why won't my kitty come and cuddle with me? (I'm sure it has NOTHING to do with me throwing shoes at her yesterday for scratching the carpet on the stairs).
(wow, I'm being pathetic + whiney!)
But ... life swings up again.
Ok ok, so I'm a HUGE GEEK. We all know this.
A few weeks ago, I signed up w/
Google Analytics. Yeah, yeah, I should have done it a long time ago, but life keeps running away with me. Heck, I don't even really know all of its capabilities, but it's pretty stinkin' cool.
It gives all sorts of information/data. I really need to learn all of the capabilities.
But it's super cool to be able to see how many *new* people are coming to your site. And how many are coming from searches or online listings.
AND because I'm a super nerd, it's cool to see where they live (I SO need a life!).

Here are the top 25 cities our main site visitors are from:

And on the map:

(HELLLLLOOOOOO, Alaska!)
We even have some international visitors:

I can guess who I know in Canada and Kenya, but the rest of the international peeps, dunno how the heck they made their way to our site.
They also calculate the percent of people who are brand new versus returning visitors on the site. Cool!

Here are the percents from our blog:

The countries who visit our blog:

And the top 25 cities:

It's super fun to look at these because I know some of these are friends, and I mentally say "hi" when I see your city's name. i.e. when I see Coffeyville, I think "HI DOUG!!!!" (not Douggie).
And when I see places in Iowa or Wyoming, I"m all "Hi Erin + Joe!!!!" in my mind.
(I'm a dork).